Day 15, Temporary Ups and Downs, Neutropenic fever, and not going home today
January 30th, 2007 at 10:13 pm (Anita updates)
I was hoping that Anita was be able to come home early to mid this week. That isn’t in the cards now.
Starting last night, Anita developed a low grade fever which seems to have crept up a bit more through the day today.
The fever may not be anything to be very concerned about. It is possible that her body temperature is up a bit from the arsenic as it works to clear out the cancer cells. It is also possible that an infection has become active in her system.
If her fever today is an infection, I am hopeful that it won’t take a strong hold as her white blood count has been increasing steadily over the past few days. Her white count is actually starting to approach the bottom end of the range that is considered “normal†as of today.
I told Anita today that all those new white cells she is producing will soon “kick some ass†on the fever. I think that re-assured her because she remembers all too well dealing with many days of neutropenic fever when her white counts were very low in 2002. Unfortunately, fevers are common whenever your immune system is knocked down as a result of leukemia or the efforts to treat it.
Neutropenic fever is difficult and can be dangerous. Your whole body feels very different when it is feverish and not being able to shake a fever for days on end is difficult psychologically and physically. Lengthy fevers are also profoundly tiring. You can quickly end up feeling like the fever will never end. Of course the fever will end and you just have to always repeat to yourself that all aspects of this suffering, or joy associated with good news, is just temporary.
The length of a fever can be directly tied to weight loss and a wide range of nasty potential complications. It’s not so much the fever that is very dangerous, it’s more the lack of normal immune function, and the susceptibility to infections that poses the largest risk. Nurses and Dr’s that treat cancer patients are very accustomed to managing neutropenia – it is a well known enemy for cancer patients.
Usually fevers can be beaten back with strong antibiotics so that is good news. They are frustrating though and you can find yourself checking your temperature all too often as you worry that “the fever†might have returned.
So many of the events with Anita’s relapse, like today’s fever, resonate with painful and difficult events that occurred when Anita was treated the first time. Even if the events are a bit different this time, I find myself saying “Oh, not that again. I remember what that was like and it was awful!†Ignorance offers some emotional protection when you don’t know how bad all this can get – you don’t have that “benefit†the second time around.
When Anita’s leukemia gets difficult, I try to think about the temporary nature of the specific problem she is dealing with. That is a key coping method for me – I always know that none of these problems are permanent, and are normally short term issues. I try to think about the temporary nature of all things, then read a few success stories of people that have “made it through.â€
I suspect this little bout of fever won’t last long. I also know that I will very likely be returning to this subject again after her SCT related chemotherapy- which is still looming on the horizon.
Basically Anita can’t leave the hospital if she has had a fever within 24 hours – so no parole from the hospital at least for now. This is unfortunate as she really wanted to come home today.
Oh well, with this delay, it will be all the sweeter when she does finally come home. I use the term “come home” loosely though, realizing that she will be spending 5-6 hours at the hopsital per day to receive her treatment.
Hi. My name is Billy. I was diagnosed with APL in December of 2005.
This is just a note to wish you (and everyone with Leukemia in the world) a speedy recovery and to let you know that my friends and I are praying for you.
Anita is feeling pretty well today and her white blood cell count has improved slightly. She may be able to leave the hospital early this week, allowing her to continue her treatment as an outpatient.
I want to thank you for making this site on APL survivors.. I’m one of them- they call me the miracle mann and million dollar man. I was hit with APL in April of 2004. I relapsed in Sept 2005 and in CR since then. I want to let anyone that wants to talk about there story or to say hi, I would love that. I went through the ringer at first. I was at Stanford hospital and had a bad reaction to the chemo and was put in a coma for 15 days. While in the hospital a total of 89 days and had a mild stroke -double bleeding ulser and blood clot in my leg all within a month, I’m here to tell the story. More to come
Some people, that will never develop leukemia, test positive for the presence of cells with leukemic translocations. This is not a new discovery, it has been known for a long while. Here is an article that discusses this fact: