When is it time to give up? Help with the fight!
March 14th, 2008 at 7:45 pm (Anita updates, Dealing with Treatment, Get Well Wishes, How you can Help, Survivor Roll Call)
First a very short Anita update; Anita is doing great!! She is 8 months post transplant and while her treatment wasn’t easy, we are fortunate to be where we are now in terms of her health.
Anita just had a clear PCR test result come in today – this was most welcome news. The test result means that there is no detectable trace of cancer in Anita’s blood right now.
You are never quite out of the woods with leukemia – it can always come back but a negative PCR test means that you are probably in a very high state of remission.
This post is going to wander a bit from the specific topic of APL. That’s OK though because there are many aspects of APL that are similar to any life threatening disease.
From time to time I am going to grab posts from the LLS forums that may be of interest to the APL community. There is a tremendous amount of helpful information on the LLS discussion forums, but like any busy forum, only the most current stuff is readily visible and older posts just get buried and lost over time.
So here we go – I am going to spotlight a lengthy thread about my hero “Zach Man†Zach is a 25 yr old guy that is seriously fighting for his life right now. He is fighting a very aggressive form of AML that isn’t giving an inch of slack or respite. Throughout the early part of the post, Zach is rolling with the punches, dealing with his treatments as well as can be expected. Pay special attention to his post on 03-13-2008 04:19 PM though. Zach is 25 yrs old and seems ready to give up the fight and “head home.â€
Please read Zach’s post and I want you to think about what it would be like to have a brother, spouse, or any loved one in his position. It happened to me – it could happen to you too.
I want to stress that I deeply respect any decision Zach might make in terms of giving up the fight or carrying on…
So here’s the post… (note that I’m pasting only part of the post here ). Zach’s CaringBridge page is here too: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/zachmc
| Author | Topic: Relapse at day +60 |
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| ZachMan Member |
posted 03-07-2008 08:59 AM
Well my disease is just doing weird stuff, my bone marrow envolvement has gotten worse and super fast, but not any real lymph node sweelings or tumors. Hmmm I dunno…. What good is once dose of steroids and my WBC went from a crazy 74.5 to 0.32 in one dose! IP: Logged |
| mlpastorello Member |
posted 03-07-2008 10:30 AM
I follow your posts and I want to tell you that you are so amazingly brave. You are stronger than this disease so you will beat it. I hope you get the “mental” break you deserve. IP: Logged |
| ZachMan Member |
posted 03-07-2008 03:14 PM
Here is my caringbridge page if anyone missed it: IP: Logged |
| ZachMan Member |
posted 03-10-2008 04:29 PM
Well back at the condo, been eating alot since the steriods I was/am on haha. IP: Logged |
| leawedge Member |
posted 03-10-2008 10:21 PM
Zach- IP: Logged |
| ZachMan Member |
posted 03-12-2008 01:33 AM
Everything tastes good haha, pizza, pancakes, cheese, soup, etc. IP: Logged |
| Jeri Member |
posted 03-12-2008 07:07 AM
Zach, IP: Logged |
| potterp Member |
posted 03-12-2008 07:35 PM
Hey Zach, IP: Logged |
| courtneyssister Member |
posted 03-12-2008 09:26 PM
Zach, IP: Logged |
| cgrobin Member |
posted 03-13-2008 01:11 AM
Glad to hear you’re eating. Don’t forget you need extra protein to rebuild the damage from chemo, so put extra pepperoni on the pizza. IP: Logged |
| Tex Member |
posted 03-13-2008 12:57 PM
Zach, you do so well with the changes. I’m glad you’re doing well (enough) I’ve been thinking a lot about you while I was gone. IP: Logged |
| ZachMan Member |
posted 03-13-2008 04:19 PM
Thanks everyone, yeah I just take the hits in stride, but it sucks being the guy at MDA in a room of 50 patiants and they all listening to you about what all has gone wrong and everyone feels bad for you. IP: Logged |
| mlpastorello Member |
posted 03-13-2008 04:49 PM
Please don’t ever give up Zach. You are too young and you can beat this. Just always remember you are stronger. My sis was told by her nurse to freeze her Ensure shakes and that might make it seem more like a treat. It is kind of funny though – my sis said after being the patient now (she is a clinical nutritionist specializing in oncology) she wishes she could go back and take every lecture she has ever given. You never know until you are in the bed. She now would go back and tell them, “I will be happy with any calories you can put in and however you want to get em” IP: Logged |
| mlpastorello Member |
posted 03-13-2008 04:52 PM
Sorry cgrobin – obviously following the neutropenic diet! Do you guys also have to throw away unopened food after 48 hours? Getting fatter on my sis’s leftover Little Debbies IP: Logged |
| chrisgru Member |
posted 03-14-2008 01:57 AM
Zach, IP: Logged |
| Tex Member |
posted 03-14-2008 01:07 PM
Hey Zach, IP: Logged |
| LadyLouise Member |
posted 03-14-2008 01:25 PM
Hello to all on Zach’s team! Go, Zach, Go! I’m just back from a trip so had to get caught up here. I have such a mix of disappointment and hope but I will never give up on you Zach. Your strength and courage is such an inspiration. IP: Logged |
| KyGuy Member |
posted 03-14-2008 02:37 PM
Zach, IP: Logged |
| courtneyssister Member |
posted 03-14-2008 06:54 PM
Hi, Zach. IP: Logged |
| cgrobin Member |
posted 03-14-2008 07:22 PM
quote: Originally posted by mlpastorello: I believe I was told three days. So often I’d keep eating the same thing to try to finish it in 3 days. IP: Logged |
| Wattle Member |
posted 03-14-2008 08:12 PM
I’m on W&W until it either “blasts off” or goes away, so I don’t watch this forum much, but I’m on your team Zach for what it’s worth! and anyone else who needs an ear or someone to lean on. If mine goes wild it will be a T-cell thing too, so I have a special interest! (((hugs))), Yvonne IP: Logged |
How can you help Zach?
I encourage you to wish him well, but the unfortunate fact is that we can’t do much for Zach. The good news is that he is being treated by one of the best cancer treatment centers in the world – MD Anderson in Houston TX.
Cancer can’t always be successfully treated for individuals, but through collective effort we can make progress, slowly moving toward better treatments and more successful outcomes that will give individual patients a better chance of survival in the years to come.
Please take the time to learn more about cancer and how you can make a difference. There are many great resources to reach out to.
Here are a few for you to consider:
There are countless ways we can all help.
Remember when you support health related causes you are really giving to the entire world. Improvements in cancer treatments eventually reach many areas of the world, indeed reaching some areas better than others (yet another problem).
Chris
Anita’s white cell count has been decreasing quickly over the past few days. It dipped below 500 today and will likely be close to zero within a few days.
Anita is feeling pretty well today and her white blood cell count has improved slightly. She may be able to leave the hospital early this week, allowing her to continue her treatment as an outpatient.
I was inspired to setup the site through Anita’s experience with APL. I believe there is an opportunity here to extend Anita’s experience with APL toward helping others with this difficult disease. Anita’s story will be a part of the site but over time I would like to see the site become more generalized.